Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)

"Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)

"You call me out upon the waters The great unknown where feet may fail And there I find You in the mystery In oceans deep My faith will stand And I will call upon Your name And keep my eyes above the waves When oceans rise My soul will rest in Your embrace For I am Yours and You are mine Your grace abounds in deepest waters Your sovereign hand Will be my guide Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me You've never failed and You won't start now So I will call upon Your name And keep my eyes above the waves When oceans rise My soul will rest in Your embrace For I am Yours and You are mine Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders Let me walk upon the waters Wherever You would call me Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander And my faith will be made stronger In the presence of my Savior[x6] I will call upon Your Name Keep my eyes above the waves My soul will rest in Your embrace I am Yours and You are mine"

This song is one of those favorites spreading across churches like wild fire. But I'm curious if anyone is really hearing it? Really singing it? Really living it?

I asked this question of myself as I played this song for the 5th time in a week. Was I really asking this of God? Was my heart singing this? Not my emotional heart, but my CORE. The heart of my being that pumps life into my veins. Was this song screaming from my veins? Was I completely surrendered to the message it communicated? At the time, the answer was no.

After some time I realized I liked the idea of the song. I liked the pretty picture is painted of a life fully devoted to God, but I wasn't living that life. 

I didn't have trust without borders. At the time I questioned my trust just because my boyfriend didn't have a better paying job.

I didn't say "let me walk upon the waters WHEREVER you would call me". I was telling God I would only go as far as still having money in my savings. I would only go as far as only getting recognized for my service at church. I told Him I would only go as far as my Dad not losing his job. I told Him. I told God. 

I didn't want Him to take me deeper than my feet could ever wander. That scared me. I couldn't control the waters under there. I wasn't in control under there. Deeper? Wouldn't that mean I'd be drowning?? If I go deeper than I can wander, that means I can't wander. Don't I deserve the freedom to decide if I want to wander or not??? 

Then, it hit me...

AND MY FAITH WILL BE MADE STRONGER, IN THE PRESENCE OF MY SAVIOR

I remembered what it was like to be in the "presence of my Savior"....I ran there once...once when I was completely broken...once when my heart craved letting go in my Savior's arms. Once, when I wasn't distracted. Once, when He was the love of my life. Once, when I didn't care what happened to me, as long as I had Him, I could do anything. Once, when I almost lost my Dad. Once, when I had to be strong for my Mom. Once, when the love of my life saw fit to give me what I didn't dare ask for...my Dad's life. Once, when I didn't pray for Dad to be healed. Once, when I didn't ask God to make him live. Once, when my trust in God did not lean on my own understanding...it leaned on God...the God above this earth....above the things we count as important. God was calling me out on the waters again, to make my faith stronger. 

I write this blog post from the Ocean. Resting in His embrace. For I am His, and, a wonderful thing I can't wrap my head around...He is mine. He's stretching out my boarders of trust, He's pulling me deeper into His Ocean farther than my feet can even think of wandering. He's calling me out upon the waters.

I don't know who else feels the depth of this song with their core like I do now. I know what it's like to feel it with emotions, and I know what it's like to feel it with my core. They are very different. Emotions don't change us, they just add to what’s already there. But when something speaks to your core, and pumps through your veins...it changes you. It VISUALLY LITERALLY changes you!!! A change other people can SEE. It forces you to follow God, abandoning EVERYTHING you have for the sake of the Lord's calling. I don't care who you are, but if you are the same person as yesterday, you are not allowing God to speak to your CORE. You are only allowing Him to speak to your emotions just enough to make you feel good and maybe even prompt you to say hi to someone at the grocery store. But you are not allowing Him to speak to your CORE if you are going to the same grocery store and buying the same food (figuratively). God changes us drastically in every single little thing we do when we let Him into our CORE. When we are willing to abandon every logical thought for His sake.

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love God, who have been calling according to His purpose" Romans 8:28

God has good things. Abandoning logic does not mean what you do won't be logical. Instead, it will be even more logical because it will come from God, the creator of logic and order.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding, but in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight" Proverbs 3:5-6

Leaning on our own understanding does not work with trusting God...

"For though we live in the world we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of this world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." 2 Corinthians 10:3-5

Take captive your emotions...your thoughts....are you really truly obeying the Lord? How do you know? What does God ask His children to do? READ THE WORD AND FIND OUT. If you read the Word already....READ IT AGAIN! AND AGAIN! AND AGAIN! Don't ever stop testing your thoughts to make sure they are agreeing with God's Word. You are never ever "safe" enough to not be taking every thought captive. King David himself was a "man after Gods own heart" and he even stumbled horribly. You lie to yourself if you think you are JUST FINE. "Just fine" people are under the deception of the enemy without even knowing it.

The message of this song...is SO deep and loud. But is your heart, the core of your being...tuned into the right frequency? Get it off the emotional frequency! And surrender everything to the Lord. He's calling you upon the waters. Do you hear Him? Are you ready to go deeper than your feet can ever wander? Where your trust is without boarders? Are you ready to make your faith stronger?

Call upon His Name, keep your eyes above the waves, no matter where He calls you...